The baby is doing so well. He is a great for the most part. He will even let us sleep now. He will wake us up, of course, if he is either hungry or if he has a dirty diaper. That is to be expected. It was a process to get to this point and I am pretty sure that it will continue to be as well....probably from here on out. We have sort of system up. I will take the first part of the night taking care of him, and Ruby will take over the second part of the night. I will take him from like bedtime until 2 or 2:30. Anything after that, and I have a hard time staying up. I wish I could take care of him the entire night, but I guess that it isn't possible. I feel bad leaving him with Ruby. What I mean by that is that I wish I could help Ruby more. I sometimes feel that I don't help here enough. Hell, I try my best, but I still feel that it isn't enough. It may be, I don't know, I just feel that way. I am sure that it is just me though (I hope)....
There are some tough times for me during the night. He had his rough couple of nights. I guess little Raymond had a really bad case of gas in his system that would seem to really hurt him. When that would occur, he would cry and scream. It seemed like it would last forever. Poor little guy. I felt helpless. There wasn't much that I could do to help him. Of course this would happen during the night. It really bothered me too. I mean, I thought I was a patient man until this happened. Turns out during these rough nights, Ruby was the patient one. The thing that got me, was just that I couldn't help him or relieve his pain. I didn't know what to do or what I could do. It really gets you when you are holding your son in your arms and he is crying, and there isn't much you can really do about it.
Turns out that this is a common problem for newborns. And it has gotten so much better. He doesn't seem to have the gas issue anymore. That is good news, but there were times during those rough nights that I thought to myself, "What did I get myself into?" or "I am not ready for this, I'm just not!". I know that may sound bad of me to say, but it is the truth. But I had to also tell myself that it will get better, and that seemed to help. You just have to stay patient. You have to. I mean those times were really trying. You don't want to deal with it, but you have to. And it did get better. So much more. It's all the learning process of this new life that me and Ruby have embarked on. She really has been the best during this whole life change. I am beginning to think that I married superwoman. She just has been truly amazing. I don't know how she does it, but I am glad I have her with me.
Well, just when you get into another routine, and you think you have it all down....something else changes. I have to return to work....damn....
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