I wanna suck like lovers do, I want to lose a grammy too...

It's tough to keep this thing going. I mean, don't get me wrong, we don't plan to on stopping. It's just amazing that sometimes we, or I, find the time to keep working on music. Really what I am talking about is getting in the studio and do what we call "rehearse". When I think about this, it isn't surprising that there are times when we don't get in the studio space for like a week or two. Sometimes, it seems that happens more often than times we do get in there. It's just the way it goes, I know that, we all know that, but yet it is still frustrating.

I think in our case, well..mine and Mike's for sure, is our full time jobs. Not to exclude Rook in this case, but it seems to get in the way with Mike and myself much more. It just gets in the way the more often than anything else. As of now, there isn't anything that I can do about it. I have to have my job. I have to have the money come in. I think that is the case for all of us. Yet, we still find the time in our crazy schedules to try this thing, to try and make music. It's one of the things that keeps us going. It keeps us alive. It makes us happy. It's hard.

I am trying my best to work on stuff at home. Yes, I have said it again. I actually am trying my best to keep my end of the bargin. I mean, I am not going to get any better not practicing. It hurts me not to. How can I expect to get better if I don't practice? So, I am trying to keep it up. I shouldn't have to force myself to practice. If this is really want I want, what I love, it shouldn't be a chore, or work, right!? I AM trying.

I hope to finish the year out with a bang. I think that we can do it. Hell, I almost say, that we have to. We have to come out of this year with something concrete, and to have a sense of accomplishment. I think that it will be some sort of a measuring stick for us. I have gotten a bit refocused, and hope that the guys are ready too. Next week, we start to bust our ass. From next week, until the end of the year. It is way past time.

We will see what we are made of. We have wasted too much time.