and if you save yourself, you will make him happy

I finally, or should I say, got back in the rehearsal studio with Mike and Raymond last Tuesday. It was a great feeling. I didn't know exactly how it would go down, or how I would feel. It turned out to be just fine, not that I didn't expect it to be at all. Things are starting to get back on track. I mean, goals are getting set and things are really starting to come together and move. It's great to see. I almost feels like a fresh start. That is probably the best way to put it at this point. It's weird too, I mean we all haven't gotten in there since before the baby was born, but we are all on the same wave length. It's almost as if the "break" kind of made us miss what we were doing. It may be a good thing. We seem to really miss what we were doing. Because of this, we kind of refocused and realized what we want to do ulitimately. It works out really. By that I mean, nobody got discouraged, or wanted to jump ship persay....that is a good sign. I think that the guys I am working with, Mike and Rook, are in it for the long run. I know that I am. I don't care if we ever play I live show at a real venue, in front of live people, we are doing what we love. Creating music. Man, that is such a great thing to say that you do. It's not hard, and it isn't rocket science, but it is still a wonderful thing. Especiallly if it affects somebody. That is the reward of it all.

I don't know what direction we will go into. Man, if you think about it, we haven't even scatched the surface of music, but it is just great to be a part of.

Things are starting to really move, and I feel so positive about what has happened in the last two weeks, that I can't wait to see what becomes of it. It is going to be exciting to write about, and see what really happens.....I can't wait...